...it pours.
Today, I hated that this old adage is true. And tonight, I am uncertain of so many things that I thought had already fallen into place. School is honestly such a stressful place to be right now. Everyday, I feel a huge weight on my shoulders because of TAKS, parents, apathetic kids, and I just feel like I can't do anything right. My spirit is crushed and my heart is hurting. For a while now, I have toyed with the idea of leaving education. It's been six years and maybe it's time for a break. I feel like I need to leave before I become too jaded and pessimistic like so many veteran teachers I have encountered through the years. The problem is, I just don't know what else I could do. Am I teachable? Yes. I love to learn new things and am like a little sponge when it comes to the unknown. But I am not sure who is willing to teach me something new. I am not sure what transferable skills I have. I don't have a clue as where to begin.
After a meltdown today, I pleaded with the Lord to show me what I need to do next. Maybe I don't get to leave teaching for another year or two, but I need an exit strategy. I have no idea what any of this will look like, but I am trying so hard to trust in the Lord and to learn what it truly means to wait on Him.
And I am open to any career suggestions and ideas if you've got some (all two of you out there)!!!
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